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| Not looking pretty. Or easy. Showing lots of imbalances. | 
There comes a point where you are pretty happy with the way you are, 
your performances in sport, yet there is always that niggling doubt 
about how much better you *could* be. Training plans get written, you 
get a bit faster, lactic training, hill training, strength training, 
aerobic and an aerobic thresholds looked at and analyzed.
But what if you are missing something? Something that is simple, yet, if you don't have it, you compensate.
I had an assessment recently, a functional movement type thing. In the 
past I have dabbled a little with pilates and found it, well, not easy 
as such, but certainly not impossible. I could quite happily move myself
 as the instructor wanted and make the shapes necessary.
This time in the assessment- 1-2-1, the movements and functions were 
easy. I did what I always do and muscled through them. Then I started 
getting poked and prodded in different muscles which were being used to 
keep me in position. Muscles which should have been relaxed.
The long and short of it is that although I appear to be strong, and 
have muscles, they are firing in all kinds of crazy compensation 
patterns which enable me to look like I am doing the right thing, but in
 fact I couldn't be further from what I should be doing.
What is interesting is that people tend to go to physios for assessment 
when they are injured, when something hurts, not because they "walk 
funny". I saw this person at the "walk funny" stage- which is quite 
rare.
So, comes the task of re-educating my movement patterns. Its not that 
the muscles aren't there, they are, but my brain isn't activating them 
in the right pattern. If I do any gross movements, the old "wrong" 
movement patterns immediately kick back in. Slow, easy, balanced 
movements.
This isn't just learning how to balance on one leg, its like trying to 
learn how to walk all over again, but with other muscles that are trying
 to kick in to compensate without even being asked.
At the same time, I still have all my faculties, so I can still walk, 
run, cycle, climb, lift weights etc. But the more I do that, the more 
the old movement pattens get ingrained.
One of the problems is that I can't even feel the muscles I'm meant to 
be using. Its like having the volume control of everything turned up to 
11, and the things I am listening for are somewhere below a 1. Very 
difficult and frustrating.
However, as the physio said. If I can get this working, if I can make 
these muscles work correctly and move better, rather than compensate, my
 power, speed and control will dramatically improve.
If I don't, I'll still be able to run etc, but at some point, a small 
injury will bring me down, and because that muscle is being used for 
more than it is meant to be used for, that small thing will have 
catastrophic consequences.
As an analogy, if you have a cooker and a hair dryer and you use the 
cooker to eat *and* dry your hair, and have no concept of how to use a 
hair dryer to dry your hair, (far stretched, but bear with me) if your 
cooker breaks, you are screwed. You can't cook, and you can't dry your 
hair. Yes, you can at that point learn how to use a hair drier, but its 
not going to be any use in terms of roasting a joint.
That's kind of where my muscles are at the moment. I've got to learn to 
use a hair dryer before my cooker decides it is going to break.
Enough about cookers.
I really was very lucky to meet this practitioner, I have had a number 
of suggestions and diagnoses as to what is going on, but nothing solid 
that seems right. I'm glad I got this looked at before anything 
disastrous happened, but getting to a stage of "rightness" is going to 
take quite a while. Unfortunately I'm at the wrong end of the country to
 take advantage of her knowledge and skill set, so I face the somewhat 
difficult task of finding someone who can sort me out.
Anyone near Manchester want to take on a bit of a challenge?